Getting Back to Joy

First, I want to thank all of you who left such lovely comments on my post on Friday. It's always encouraging to know that there are others who feel as you do and are likewise committed to making things better. I'm sure there may be some of you reading who don't agree with me politically, and I hope you won't stop reading because of my views. I hate how divided this country has become, and I would like us to get back to a place where we can disagree but still find common ground. Jane has said this much better than I have; I'd encourage you to go read her post if you haven't already.

It was a restful weekend here. We had no plans whatsoever, so it was a good opportunity to recharge and recenter. Saturday was moderately busy for me as I had bathrooms to clean and laundry to do (these days, that means laundry to fold -- Molly and the Mister take care of carrying it up and down the stairs). But yesterday was a gloomy, rainy day, so it was a good day to read, watch football, and start a puzzle with Molly -- we're once again doing a puzzle exchange for the holidays and need to put ours together before we split it into daily pieces and send it off.

The highlight of Saturday was the arrival of my Fibernymph Dye Works Holiday Countdown set. I wasn't going to order one this year (because we've established that I don't need more yarn or fiber), but then Lisa announced that this one would be her last ever and I gave in. I ordered a spinning set, so I have 24 bags of fiber bundles to spin. The theme this year is the Mystery of Color; each day's bag has information about color theory, and some of them have information about particular colors. Though some people will be knitting or spinning this set as an Advent calendar, I wasn't going to wait. It's been a while since I spun anything, mainly because I wasn't sure if I could spin with my boot, so I got out my Hansen miniSpinner, which I haven't used in probably a year or more. I did have some singles on the bobbin that was on it, so I started by winding those off and plying them back on themselves. Now I have a fluffy little 44-yard skein of purple yarn:

U.S. quarter for scale

My spinning set-up isn't very elegant, but it works. Because I'm using the folding snack table that I used to use for my miniSpinner for my work computer now, I've got it sitting on the folding chair that I've been using to elevate my foot and to sit in for my workouts.

In black and white so I don't spoil anyone's surprise!

There was also a fair amount of knitting done on my sweater over the weekend, though there was also some ripping back when I discovered that I had decreased two more stitches than I needed to on my first sleeve. I'm not sure how that happened, but it's been fixed and I'm now a dozen rounds into the sleeve colorwork. As you can see, I've decided to make the arms match the body.

It looks like I will have plenty of the main color yarn to complete the sleeves -- that was my main worry in going up a size -- and I'll have likely most of the contrast yarn left to do something else with. I'm thinking some sort of shawl or scarf because this fiber blend is so lovely against the skin.

Last week was very busy and stressful aside from the election, but I finished a big project on Friday and I'm hoping that translates to a quieter week this week. The Booker Prize winner will be announced tomorrow, and I have one last title from the longlist that I'd like to finish before then, if possible (I've got about 200 pages left to read). I hope it is a gentle Monday for us all.

What Comes Next

It's been several days, and I'm sure I'm not alone in saying that I've gone through a whole range of emotions. I've been surprised that I haven't been as emotional as I was after 2016, but I think that's also because I wasn't as surprised that Americans would choose this outcome again. Not surprised -- but definitely disappointed. I'm disappointed that the majority of those who voted would choose a convicted felon who encouraged his supporters to overthrow the government and who had said he would be a dictator over an exceptionally well-qualified candidate who happens to a woman. I'm disappointed that so many voters would choose hatred and fear of others and in many cases would vote against their own self-interests. I'm disappointed that so many seem to have accepted the narrative (which, let's face it, was basically propaganda) that we're in the worst economic situation ever and that we're being overrun by dangerous criminals coming through wide-open borders without bothering or perhaps knowing how to check the facts. Mostly I'm disappointed that this country really hasn't come very far in terms of equality and equal opportunity in its 248 years.

But then I watched the vice president's concession speech on Wednesday. I was amazed at her composure and her ability to smile and say she was still hopeful. I was inspired by her words, particularly to the younger people who were so excited by her candidacy. If you didn't watch it, I encourage you to, especially if your heart is still hurting. She reminded me that the United States is all of us -- that it is our ongoing commitment to each other and to the Constitution that makes us a country. And given what we might face in the next four years, those of us who value our freedoms and our rights can't just throw in the towel and give in to despair.

I'll admit I am scared about what the future might bring. I already have fewer rights than I had four years ago, and we all may very well lose more. But I am not letting the prospect of what might happen take away my joy in the right now. I will continue to find happiness in the things that I love, beauty in the world around me, and contentment from being with family and friends. I know that as an educated white woman who is financial fairly secure, my day-to-day life is less precarious than those of immigrants, people of color, the LGBTQIA+ community, and others who face discrimination and additional barriers, so I can use the privilege I have to help them. I can donate my time and money to causes that lift people up. I can be a good neighbor in my community and spread kindness to others. And I can take consolation in the fact that there are many others out there who I think will join me in these efforts.

The bottom line is that while I am not especially full of hope right now, I am not hopeless. Having any hope right now feels a bit like an act of bravery and resistance -- and doesn't that seem like a very good thing in these dark times?

So my friends, as we head into this weekend, please know that you are not alone in feeling all the feelings. Please be gentle with yourselves and take the time you need to process, mourn, whatever. But I hope that soon you will feel up to joining me in doing whatever small things we can to make this world a better place.

Unraveled, Week 44/2024

Hi, friends. I'm getting this post ready to go on Tuesday evening, as I know I won't be sleeping much and am likely to be very groggy on Wednesday morning. The Mister worked from home on Tuesday and was able to take me to the polls shortly after they opened. I waited in line about half an hour to vote -- and was voter number 47 in my precinct! I was wearing my "Madam President" t-shirt, my pearls, and my Chucks (well, one of them).

I will say that I was very encouraged by the turnout -- it reminded me a lot of 2008. I only hope that there was this enthusiasm everywhere! I expect we won't know the outcome for several days yet, so I'm trying to keep myself busy and as distracted as possible.

Edit: I woke up, looked at the news, and am in complete shock. I truly don't know what to say.

It's Wednesday, so it's time to link up with Kat and the Unravelers. Here's where the WIPs stand at the moment:

I spent Monday evening getting through the heel of the striped socks and then binding off the rest of my sweater body. Yesterday I was focused on the new sock design; I've written up a draft of the pattern but am still struggling to come up with a name. And I've also wound yarn for the sleeves of the sweater, including dividing the remaining main color yarn. I think I am leaning toward making the colorwork on the sleeves match the body and then finding something else to do with the rest of the contrast yarn -- it certainly won't go to waste!

I have finished another two books in the past week:

A small group of us have been exploring past winners of the Women's Prize for Fiction this year, and on Saturday we gathered on Zoom to discuss the 2015 winner, How to Be Both. This is a really unusual book, not least because it's made up of two stories and the order in which they appear depends on the particular edition of the book you have. I had a paperback in which I got the "camera" story first and the "eyes" story second. I don't want to say too much about the book because I think it's best to go into it not knowing much. I will say that while I was frequently a little puzzled, I thought it was really cleverly done. This is a book that I think I could easily read again, perhaps more than once, and get more out of. I gave it 4 stars.

I think many of you know that Molly and I recently finished watching the entirety of Gilmore Girls, so you will probably not be surprised to hear that I was interested in learning more about Kelly Bishop, aka Emily Gilmore, when I heard that she had a memoir coming out. To be honest, I didn't know much about her at all, so I found her story to be absolutely fascinating. First of all, she is nothing like her perhaps most well-known character. Did you know that before she became an actor, she was a dancer on stage, or that she originated the role of Sheila in A Chorus Line and won a Tony for it? Bishop narrates the audiobook, and I think hearing the story in her voice made it that much more enjoyable. It's a quick listen, too. I gave it 4 stars.

I'm currently reading This Strange Eventful History on Kindle and The Piano Tuner on paper, though I'm not making much headway on either (gee, it's almost like I have other things on my mind).

That's all from me today. If you need me, I'll be trying not to check the news constantly and likely pretending to work. Hang in there, friends, and remember to breathe and hydrate!

How I Spent My Weekend

It is the first Monday of Standard Time, and I'm guessing a lot of you are still messed up over the time change. I know there's a lot of to-do about staying in Daylight Saving Time, but I'm in the camp that believes Standard Time is better. Regardless, it's the switching back and forth the gets on my nerves, and I'm thankful that yesterday was a lazy day even without factoring in a broken foot so that I could adjust a little easier.

So, how did I spend my weekend? Let's just say it looked like a lot of this:

We had tickets to go see the musical & Juliet on Saturday afternoon, and I was really looking forward to seeing it with Molly, but even if someone had driven us there, it would have been a lot of walking and too great a risk of someone stomping on my foot, so my father took her instead (my mother had a hair appointment she wasn't able to move or else she would have gone). Molly loved it, and while I'm sorry I couldn't go with her, it was nice to have a Saturday afternoon to myself without errands to run or chores to do. I was also supposed to go with the Mister to his high school reunion that night, but he went on his own and Molly and I had macaroni and cheese and watched Only Murders in the Building.

Yesterday we all slept in a little and had a leisurely breakfast, and I did some knitting and watched some podcasts while the Mister did the grocery shopping. In the afternoon, while Molly did homework, I worked on the sock pattern (the actual pattern writing part) and then we baked another apple cider donut cake with the cider that was left. The one we made on Friday tasted good but came out of the pan in two pieces, so I wanted to give this one a try, especially because more than one person recommended it on Friday. The verdict is that the Smitten Kitchen cake takes longer but is a more sophisticated cake (not as sweet). I think it would be a good recipe for Rosh Hashanah, actually, because it reminded me a bit of honey cake. I neglected to take a photo before we dug into it, but mine ended up looking quite a lot like the one in the recipe, although a bit taller.

As you can see from the photo above, there was a lot of knitting on my sweater this weekend, and I've actually just about finished the body -- I just have to finish binding off the back!

I guess I was a bit of an overachiever in spinning the contrast color, because when I completed the colorwork, I hadn't even gotten to the first shift in color. Molly suggested that when I do the sleeves, I work from the other end of the gradient, and I'm toying with that idea. I'm not sure if having the sleeves and the body be different will look good or weird. Thoughts? I have a while before I have to decide, but I'm pondering.

I am hoping that work calms down a bit last week. With all the foot drama last week, I also had a very large (nearly 80 pages) and very high-profile annual report to review, plus December graduation lists started coming in. At least I know that this week I don't have to worry about commuting to the office or picking Molly up from school, so that gives me a little extra time. And I will be able to knit through two additional meetings this week!

Tomorrow's the big day -- please make sure you get to the polls if you haven't voted already! I know it'll likely be several days before we know the results, but at least all the ads and text messages will stop. I will be voting in person tomorrow, either by getting a ride or getting out the crutches, and I'll be spending the rest of the day feeling (as I saw someone post on Instagram) nauseously optimistic.

Friday, Finally

Thank you all for your good wishes for my healing yesterday. The orthopedist couldn't have been nicer (my mother actually sees him for her arthritic knee!), and he told me that I should have my foot in the boot pretty much all the time. I can take it off to bathe, but that's about it. So no driving for me until I see him again in five weeks, which is a major bummer. The Mister dug out the crutches I used when I got that bad sprain many years ago, and I'll use them when I have to go longer distances. The doctor said that given that I'm generally physically active, I don't smoke, and I'm not diabetic, he expects the foot to heal quite well. I just have to stay off it as much as possible and let it heal. And that's likely to be the hardest part.

While this is a major bummer and a big inconvenience, the timing has worked out well, if it had to happen. Right now is a particularly busy time at work, so I'd be sitting at a computer for most of the day anyway. My boss has already told me not to worry about coming into the office until I'm healed, so I don't have to worry about that (and now I'll get bonus knitting time during my biweekly team meetings). And because my niece is due to arrive soon, my parents took only a brief trip down to Florida and now are back, so they'll be able to help out while I can't drive. I've also decided to use this opportunity to work on my upper-body strength and do some focused workouts to build up those muscles. I miss running and walking outside, but I'll do what I can from indoors.

Today I am hoping for a better day. Molly is home (it's an in-service day at her school), so we'll be baking an apple cider donut cake to take to family dinner tonight. I'm hoping to finish up a big, high-profile project for work. And we'll have that family dinner again, so I'll get snuggles from my nephew and my favorite puppy. This too shall pass.

I'll leave you with a couple of photos. First, the sum total of my bell pepper harvest from this year:

I may have grown only one pepper, but I can tell you that it was delicious! We had it on our salad at dinner on Wednesday night.

Second, something to make you laugh. When I fell on Sunday, I also managed to break the case of my phone, so I ordered some new ones. I'm always amused by the poor English translation on the packaging of products, and I thought you'd appreciate this one:

Click to embiggen so you can read the smaller print!

Be careful out there, friends, and have the best weekend available to you. And don't forget that we turn the clocks back to Standard Time on Sunday!